Finding A Purpose
Since submitting my dissertation, I have felt like I was in a bit of a rut.
I completed it about 2 weeks before it was due but for some reason I didn’t submit it until a couple of days before.
I didn’t know why at first, however now I do. I realised that once I had submitted it then I would be finished with University. Once I was finished with University, what would my purpose be?
At the moment I am struggling. I don’t feel worthless but I don’t know what I’m doing.
Back in December I began applying for internships and I was hoping to have one secured by the time I handed in my dissertation.
I like to be in control, I like to know what I’m doing and where my life is going but right now I feel like I’m wandering in no direction.
Before I submitted my dissertation I burst into tears because I just didn’t want this to come to an end. I felt like I had a purpose and I was working towards something. But now, I have no plan, I have no back-up plan, I don’t know where I will live in a couple of months and my head is a mess.
After crying to my boyfriend for what seemed like the most stupid thing ever I stopped. I just took a step back and thought I could do something good with this feeling of helplessness.
I decided to write this blog post.
For a while I’ve wanted to start a Motivation Monday series and now with this going on I feel like there’s no better time. So this is the first post.
Whilst writing this I chose to go onto pinterest and have a look for quotes to do with purpose and found one that really made me think:
‘The real joy in life comes from finding your true purpose and aligning it with what you do every single day’ – Tony Robbins
Reading this made me realise that it’s okay to not know what my purpose is right now. I have just worked solidly for 3 years for something I really wanted. I know who I am as a person now, or at least have a better idea of who I am. I may never get this opportunity to relax and really think about what I want to do again.
So instead of worrying what’s to come I’m going to enjoy this time between finishing and graduation.
I am going to relax, not be so hard on myself and just take it day by day.
I am limiting myself to applying for one job or internship a day and really choosing which ones make me excited.
I’ve realised if I enjoy this time finding a purpose then, hopefully, I will enjoy that purpose when I eventually find it.