Motivation Monday 001

Let’s Talk: Finding A Purpose.

Since submitting my dissertation, I have felt like I was in a bit of a rut.

I completed it about 2 weeks before it was due but for some reason I didn’t submit it until a couple of days before.

I didn’t know why at first, however now I do. I realised that once I had submitted it then I would be finished with University. Once I was finished with University, what would my purpose be?

At the moment I am struggling. I don’t feel worthless but I don’t know what I’m doing.

Back in December I began applying for internships and I was hoping to have one secured by the time I handed in my dissertation.

I like to be in control, I like to know what I’m doing and where my life is going but right now I feel like I’m wandering in no direction.

Before I submitted my dissertation I burst into tears because I just didn’t want this to come to an end. I felt like I had a purpose and I was working towards something. But now, I have no plan, I have no back-up plan, I don’t know where I will live in a couple of months and my head is a mess.

After crying to my boyfriend for what seemed like the most stupid thing ever I stopped. I just took a step back and thought I could do something good with this feeling of helplessness.

I decided to write this blog post.

For a while I’ve wanted to start a Motivation Monday series and now with this going on I feel like there’s no better time. So this is the first post.

Whilst writing this I chose to go onto pinterest and have a look for quotes to do with purpose and found one that really made me think:

‘The real joy in life comes from finding your true purpose and aligning it with what you do every single day’ – Tony Robbins

Reading this made me realise that it’s okay to not know what my purpose is right now. I have just worked solidly for 3 years for something I really wanted. I know who I am as a person now, or at least have a better idea of who I am. I may never get this opportunity to relax and really think about what I want to do again.

So instead of worrying what’s to come I’m going to enjoy this time between finishing and graduation.

I am going to relax, not be so hard on myself and just take it day by day.

I am limiting myself to applying for one job or internship a day and really choosing which ones make me excited.

I’ve realised if I enjoy this time finding a purpose then, hopefully, I will enjoy that purpose when I eventually find it.

 

One Comment Add yours

  1. Anon says:

    YOU GOT THIS BUMFACE ❤

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