Diary 004: Where have I been?

So its been like 3 or 4 weeks since I last uploaded a blog post which is really bad and I feel awful about it. I can’t really explain why, a lot has gone on in the past few weeks in all aspects of my life: from personal to work life to university life and trying to prepare myself for third year. But I’m back and I thought to kick start this with an update for you all.

The easiest place to start would probably be with the fact that I moved house. And it has been a fairly stressful move for me as I have been working a lot (as you all know) and I barely had any time to think about the move let alone pack up my things, but this week I finally brought the last of my clothes and boxes round to the new place and feel so much better about it. I love my new house and share it with my three closest friends at uni, I can’t wait to make so many memories in this place, I also love how I’ve arranged my room so expect a blog post about that very soon!

I also got promoted at work which is a massive step for me, I have been putting a lot more time into work and doing everything I can to fulfil the role I have, this meant a lot of early starts and late finishes but I feel a lot more accomplished that I’m finally doing something and really enjoying it.

I’ve found my favourite gym class, again I will go into more detail in another blog post that’s currently being drafted, and have noticed such a big difference in not only my physical strength but how confident I feel about myself now. I’m nowhere near where I want to be but I’m getting there and its a journey and I’ve now learnt to pace myself because I believe I will get there.

On a more personal side I had some awful news about a family member a few weeks ago and after that just shrunk into my shell a little bit with regards to opening up to people. I didn’t know how to process it and my defence mechanism was to just shut myself away. I didn’t know what to write, I had a couple of blog posts drafted but thought they were just really crap and pointless to put up, I didn’t think they were good and was just ashamed of myself. I’m getting over that now and working on it but I’m a very self critical person and if something isn’t 100% there then I won’t want to show it to people, whether it be my body, my personal writing or a blog post. Shutting myself away meant I read a lot and started on my reading list for my final year at uni.

Nevertheless, I am back now and more motivated to put as much as I can into jessicrescent as I have no been writing this blog for 4 years which seems crazy to think. There are points where I post loads of not at all and I’d like to thank all of you readers who are still here.

So that’s my ramble over, I’ll have a new post uploaded next Friday at the same time which I am hoping will get me back into the swing of things over here after being away for so long.

Jess xx

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s